Embracing boredom.

The ebbs and flows of life sometimes feel daunting. I am not going to lie. Its been so interesting to observe myself. This summer has been full of epic sunshine and I've been so blessed to be in great health and apart of some amazing moments up in Muskoka. I truly have nothing to complain about. Looking in from the outside (as I do with other people) life can look like many things to others...complete, busy, lovely, loving, amazing etc. Instagram is one of those platforms that can also do an incredible job at highlighting how much "fun" each and everyone of us are having. All of this is so fantastic and no judgements around anything anyone is posting. I am just here to share honestly that I can't help sometimes feel less than or that I am in the wrong life sometimes while scrolling. Then I must remind myself to LOGOUT!!! Look around and remind myself and others, you are not in the wrong life, the wrong yoga class, the wrong time period, you never are. You are exactly where you are meant to be even when time is passing slowly, there is heartache, boredom, sadness, loss. Just because others seem to be having the best time doesn't necessarily mean they are. It seems there is a need to want to show the world all the awesomeness in our lives and then some avoidance to show the emptiness and thats ok but it doesn't mean that you have to avoid feeling what you need to even when others are not or just because it is the sunniest day means I must be in a good mood. I believe we are spirits having a human experience and not always in control of how, why or when our feelings and emotions flow through us, the bigger point is to just let them flow like the waves of the ocean. Moment to moment they will change. When I latch on and try and control them, make myself wrong or bad for just feeling how I feel is when I create more suffering. Being in my relationship has been this incredible reminder that even though we may not go through the same emotions at the same time, we still go through them triggered by different reasons. When Kevin and I do go through the same emotions at the same time it has brought great awareness to truly how connected we all are. Yesterday plan and simple Kevin and I were bored with life AND we went to rib fest with his daughter. we got a couple drinks, went to the beach, went for a dip and oddly enough even going through what looking in on from the outside was a great day we both still had an emptiness and meh feeling. We woke up late in the middle of the night around the same time and talked about it. There was a comfort for both of us there and through that it inspired me to write and share with you so whoever reads this if you can resonate its just more confirmation of how truly connected we all are. Whatever is happening be kind to yourself and know everything is temporary...EVERYTHING!